How simple it is to change parts of your life once you've left the Land of Indecision. As with most things, the first step is the hard one and then you just glide on through with the others.
Getting C.J. in a spot that worked for him was the first, and hardest, decision to make. Seeing how happy he was and how it helped everyone involved has made other decisions easier. I let Hope know that I wouldn't be coming back next year and they have decided to make the transition this year so the new person can be ready to go in the fall and so I can have a chance to get my health back in order before taking on a new position. (One that will not require 70 hour weeks and the stress of still not having meet every one's needs.) Money will be a struggle for a while, but not having Craig bear most of the weight at home and giving my kids a functional mom will make that struggle worthwhile.
Finding a new school for the boys has also started and we have some good prospects in the city. We won't know until mid-April if they got in anywhere (all the charter schools have a lottery to determine who can attend) but we are optimistic. If we don't, we'll have time to think through other options, including moving.
C.J. is still a happy camper at his school. They made and ate green eggs and ham on Friday in honor of Dr. Seuss' birthday and he loved it. He did tell me today that he wished he could go to school there without having to leave me, so I think the transition back next week might be a little rougher. The other good piece of my leaving my job is that at times I'll be able to go with him so he doesn't have to make that choice. In the meantime, we'll have lots of good snuggles and read lots of books during mommy time to let him know he is still important to us.
Life is not perfect, but I'm realizing that the quest for perfection is just that, a quest. And quests are often more about the journey than the destination.
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I'm very happy for you Laura. You'll give your body a little rest and (although finances may be tight for a bit) that is the most important thing for now.
ReplyDeleteI also am happy for CJ. It is wonderful that he is in a small class with two teachers and lots of Behavior mod. Spring break is coming soon so he'll have a longish time with his mother. I know that when she was working at the registrars at UMD during my first year of school your mother felt guilty. That was why she baby sat Baby Judy and David [in the summer only] so she didn't feel guilty about leaving you. I got another job as a RA for one of my teachers in Poli Sci. Try not to feel guilty, you are doing what is best for your son. Even if he doesn't like part of it.
Father John